A Little Bit About Me

Born in Fulham, London, in December 1963, I was the youngest of four "Boys"??? and had a happy childhood. 

I started the beginning of my education there, at the Peterborough infants school, and although I don't have too many memories of it, the one thing I can remember is one day when myself and my brother were in the playground, I was sitting on a small brick building, and my brother pulled me and I fell to the floor, resulting in a trip to the hospital, and several stitches in my head for a rather nasty cut.

After leaving Fulham, we moved to a housing estate in Wallington, Surrey, Called the "Roundshaw" estate, many people may know that a lot of the episodes of the  ITV programme, "The Bill" is filmed on this estate, very close to where I lived, which was on the "Instone Close" tower block. (Instone Close has now been pulled down to make way for new buildings, and it was one of the actors of the series who actually pushed the button to blow it up) !!!!!

There were many strange incidents occurred while we lived on that estate, including a spate of milk bottles being thrown down onto the lower deck, I am very surprised that there was never anybody injured!!!! One day, we had apples coming from "the skies", there seemed like thousands of them, and also, I remember hearing a report that early one morning the postman was cycling along the front of the place, when someone from one of the upper levels had dressed up a tailors dummy and made it look rather gruesome, and threw it down right in his path, I guess the poor postman must have almost had a heart attack right there and then !!!!!

There was also a report that someone had actually taken their own life by throwing themselves from the top of the building, although I am not 100% sure that this is the truth.

When we moved away from there, we went to live in New Addington, just outside Croydon, Surrey, and my most fondest memories are of that time. We lived in a road called "Castle Hill Avenue", and I started attending a school called "Wolsey Junior School", which was only a couple of doors away from our house, I made quite a few friends there, and was always hanging around with them in the playground.

As I grew a little older, it was then that I realised that something was "different" about me, instead of going out in the evenings with other male friends, I had a couple of girls, Alison & Vicky, who I used to hang around with, and was always joining in with their games, and we formed "clubs", as you do when you are young, I never had any interest in the usual boyish things like football, or any other sport, and from that time, I was always closer to girls than boys, and often felt rejected by the other boys in the neighborhood, including my own brothers, whom I presumed didn't want me hanging around with them just because I was the youngest, but I was always much happier when I was with the girls, and they made me feel part of them, just another one of the girls.

As I grew older, along came the usual things in life: puberty, adolescence, and sexual awareness, (The sexual attraction was always towards girls, never boys), but even at this time I still didn't feel right, that there was still something "wrong" with me, that I was a girl cruelly trapped inside a boys body, that I should have been able to experience the things that the other girls around me were experiencing, I joined a local drama school, and learned Ballet & Tap dancing, it was Alison who got me interested in this, and I was on three adverts on television. Everyone assumed that me and Alison were girlfriend\boyfriend, but in reality we were more like 2 sisters, often confiding in each other about our problems and worries, I remember often having to comfort her because her parents were on the verge of splitting up.

Another of my strong memories of living there was the Queen's Silver Jubilee, in 1977, when the road was closed to traffic, and we had a street party to celebrate.

The Queen's Silver Jubilee Party 1977         The girl second from the left is Alison,

Since leaving school I have had several jobs, mainly in the electronics industry, which is my profession, as well as my hobby, but have never really been able to settle as most of the time I was working alongside other males, although, my first job after leaving school was with a hearing aid manufacturing company in Crawley, West Sussex, where I worked on the production line amongst women, I was the only male there, and I did feel at ease with them, and they all treated me lovely, one of the women made a comment one day as to how feminine I acted, but at the time I didn't really realise how true those words really were.

I have done the usual things expected of a male in society, got married in 1985, had 2 children, the marriage ended in 1987, and after a long struggle, I was awarded custody of the children, and spent some time as a single parent, cooking\cleaning\ironing\washing etc, until I met my current partner in 1990, we were married in 1996, and are still together at this present time, She was the first person I revealed my feelings to, and she is fully supporting me throughout.